Visualising Karate

This morning I had to sit in an office and be an exam invigilator for a few hours. Mentally this could have gone one of two ways. First way, boredom, and sheer dread at how slow time was dragging. Or I could occupy my mind. So naturally I chose karate.

Using visualisation I went through my Karate syllabus and was quite surprised with how in-depth my Karate imagination was. First I went though all my bunkai (kata’s self defence), even a few later kata one’s that I was experimenting with inside my head. Bunkai have always been my strongest foundation within karate.

Next I went through throws, happy to know 15 off by heart with the right names. Then seeing which set of kata’s bunkai had those throws (I counted about 9). Even though we are not a throwing based system, it’s nice to know that we have about 12-15 strong throws that we rely upon.

Then I went through weapons, drills I know, quickflame with the jo staff. I realised that I need to refocus on my weapons, as I was less confident with them. Going through basic weapon defence, wrist locks etc.

Then I went through my kata, something I’ve been really trying to focus on outside of fight club. What is interesting is that shisochin kata and bunkai I seem to find the most natural, and went through them quicker than the others.

When I went through the San kata’s ( Sanchin ichi, ni, tensho and Sanzhan) I felt like I was mediating, the same feeling I’ve only had before from a really good yoga instructor, my inner mind was very calm and peaceful.

Next I went through kihon and kihon ido, recalling all the correct terminology. I couldn’t believe that I memorized them well, despite rarely reading them.

Then I touched upon basic grappling, and what each kata’s names mean.

To someone outside of the martial arts world this would seem tedious, but to me I felt my mind engage in a way it hasn’t done in a long time. I was thinking non stop about karate for nearly two hours. You should try it sometime.


Loved and never forgotten

To the lady of the house,
Who was always kind,
And always caring,
One of a kind,
Who loved painting,
And was never without a glass of white,
She didn’t have to enter our world,
When it was just us and dad,
But that who she was,
The lady with the warmest soul,
Forever in our hearts

Peak of life

When the sun is shining,
Through a cloudy day,
Or when you dry and parched mouth,
Is finally quenched,
With fresh cold water,
Or you’ve finally reached the peak,
After climbing the highest mountain,
You learn in those moments,
That life is full,
Life is precious,
Live your life

The Darkness within

The darkness that hides within
Always lurking amongst the shadows of your soul
The pit of despair
Fear manifested into it’s worst form
You can never truly conquer it
Nor never tame it
But rather than letting it run rampant
Destroying you from inside out
Use it as fuel
As a burning fire that you must overcome
Let the darkness become a furnace from within
Igniting your soul
That gives you the strength to not only face life
But to embrace life
To live the life that each and everyone of us deserves
The darkness will always be there
Sometimes it feels overwhelming
And you have to fight to see the light
Or the day might be full of sunshine
But it lurks in corners of your eye
To embrace life
You need to embrace darkness
To be able to live in the light


Wish I could fly
Leave my troubles behind
Wish I could fly
And take your hand
And journey towards the sunshine
Wish I could fly
Flying across the open waters
Wish I could fly
And passing mountain peaks
Wish I could fly
Every part of the world within reach of my fingertips
Dancing upon the clouds
Forever flying towards the sun

The magic of snow

What is it about snow, 

For when it falls,

Magic once lost,

Returns to the world,

No matter how old you are,

The eyes start to sparkle,

Seeing the wonder,

From long,

Long ago,

Through the eyes of child,

You once were,

What is it about snow,

Although cold and bitter,

Makes us feel cosy,

Safe and warm,

What is it about snow,

Being all white and fluffy,

Like the clouds have descended from heaven,

Transforming the land,

To a wondrous winter wonder land,

What is it about snow,

That we yearn for it,

Every time it’s Christmas,

What is it about snow,

That it can shine in the darkest part of winter

The darkness inside

I’m a child of the light,

Born to spread happiness to others,

A spark of joy for each and every soul,

I live to make others laugh,

But even though I am of the light,

There is a darkness deep dark inside me,

Hidden away like a old familiar scar upon my soul,

Dark and brooding and ready to strike at a moment’s notice,

Ready to spread across my eyes,

Clouding my judgement,

Preparing to torment me with its whirlwind of doubts,




Like poison running through my veins,

Spreading across,




The younger me would have succumbed to the darkness,

It’s eternal prisoner,

Unable to scream,

Struggling against its ice cold chains,

Chains that are bonded to my wrists and ankles,

I have to remember these are just thoughts,

My thoughts,

My inner demon,

That loves to be in overdrive,

I must remember,

I fought for so much,


Not only survived but conquered my challenges,

I have come a long way,

Through the darkness,

Searching for the light,

But the light has always been there,

Waiting for me to return

I now know I am a child of the light,

I want to help spread it’s joy,

But I have to accept its part of who I am,

A burden I must bare,

To energise others in my care,

As long as use to overcome myself,

I am no longer enslaved by the darkness,

I am of the light,

But the darkness is an old friend